Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Schoolboy's Story


Part One: The Question Paper

The black car screeched across the dark street. A door opened, and a black bag was thrown out of the car, which neither stopped, nor ever slowed down”.

Rahul read the short paragraph again, and sent a curse floating silently up in the air. He was supposed to write a story based on the paragraph above, for his English exam, and to see the unimaginative story starter included in the question paper seemed not only asinine, but also an insult to his powers of imagination and his intelligence.

His predicament was one borne out of the sheer desire to excel- he wanted to be a famous writer, and somewhere in his head, he had the odd notion that if he could score perfect in the exam, a feat not yet achieved in the history of the college, his immense talent would be recognised immediately.
He had hoped that he would get a topic for a story that would prove to be an impossible challenge for his peers, yet for him, it would present an opportunity to show his imagination, his immense vocabulary, and his sheer genius as a master story-teller with the ability to turn a most mundane event into an intriguing thriller.

Of course, being presented with the rather mundane beginning in the paper, his high hopes had given way to doubt. The topic seemed too mundane for him to stoop down to its level and write what would at best be considered pulp fiction. Be that as it may, he still couldnt deny the fact that no matter what his feelings were about the intellectual merit of the story-starter, and the moral choice of stooping down to its level, he still had to write a story based on it which would firmly establish his position as the best writer. Not only this, he had to show case all his talents in the story, something which had seemed so easy, but felt impossible to achieve.

Part Two: The Unexpected Visitor

His train of thoughts ran far from the tracks, and yet, he had caught only a fleeting glimpse of the perfect story. That, and what appeared to his eyes like a familiar face, a face which he saw in the mirror everyday, but one which had been staring in the mirror for far longer. His eyes focussed, and he realised that the face was still there, only now it also had a body attached to it.

“Please do not be afraid of me. I mean you no harm, but I have come here to give you help in your dire need” said the man.

Rahul looked at him in wonder.

“It's just that you seem so much like me- he stopped mid sentence, and added “and why is no one noticing you talking to me? This is an exam you know”

“you won't believe me, but I am you- although, I come from another universe than yours. The reason why no one can see me, or hear me is that I can only manifest myself as an electrical field that is synchronised to your brain's though process”

“let me get this right- you've travelled across an entire paralell universe as an electric field just so you can help me with my English exam? This was beginning to sound like a bad movie plot already, damn.

“Well, more or less, except the part about travelling as an electrical field- that'd be impossible, i'm afraid. I have other means which involve more complicated science like quantum entanglement, but I digress. I'm sure you would have read about it, because I did, when I was your age, and I guess you can figure out how that works. No, the real reason why I came here today is to make sure that you ace the exam, beacuse after today, your written word would be religion across all universes and bring peace. Scientists would find theories that defy all known data about the universe, yet are irrefutable. Mystics would find immortatlity, and universal peace and enlightenment, concepts unimaginable by your contemporaries, would be achived in the blink of an eye. Such is the power of your word, all balanced on whether you ace the paper today or not.

Part Three: Self Doubt

“ That might have happened in your universe, but I'm fairly sure it won't happen here By the looks of it, there's no chance I can write a story on this drivel so you might as well give up on world peace.

“I had expected this. Self Doubt is our worse enemy. I beat it though, at the same time as you, and I had someone to help me too, just like I'm here today, to help you. We know there's only one Universe in which you didn't write this story today- you wrote it many years later, and posted it on the 'internet'. I hope it was your universe, beacuse if I'm wrong, then, well, then we won't know how to fix it.”

“Internet?- I post it on the internet? With my bandwidth, I'd be lucky to check my email.

“Well, one day, you'd be streaming movies and downloading games off the internet- that's one good thing in the future at least: the internet moves much faster now, though you still have to deal with FUP, and don't ask me what that is- you'll find out soon enough”

“Alright, I believe you. I have one little issue though- if I do this with your help, I'll be cheating on my exam, won't I?”

“No, you won't. Asking yourself is not cheating in any way. In any case, I'm not here to help you with the story, I'm just here to tell you that you have done it before, and you can do it again, and that my younger self, is all the help you're going to need”.

Rahul wasn't entirely convinced, though he had to admit, he felt refreshed in a strange way. The self-doubt was still there, but it wasn't as ominous as it had seemed before. All he needed now was a mind boggling story, and a gameplan. The story that had eluded him for so far, seemed within reach, and out of the mists in his mind, a shape began to take form.
**

Mr. Carville wasn't sure exactly what he'd read. The college kept the identity of the teachers assigned to assess examination papers absolutely secret to avoid any chance of foul play. Yet, in the paper that he was assessing at the moment, tucked in the middle of the story was his name, along with a paragraph about the policy of the college to not divulge the identity of the examiner. As if this wasn't puzzling enough, the story that the boy had written seemed to border on prescience, and this wasn't the only odd thing with the story.

The story felt as if it had been written by someone who was intellectually more advanced than a boy of twelve, someone who had a vocabulary that was far more extensive than a boy of twelve, and the diction betrayed a thought process that seemed much more focussed and fluent than what he'd seen in all his years as an English teacher. All this wasn't as shocking as the realisation that the story-teller, or the boy, had an uncanny knack of predicting what was running in Mr. Carville's mind, and by some sheer coincidence, the story mentioned it at exactly the precise moment at which he was thinking about this very peculiarity.
He decided he would suspend his disbelief for the moment, and focus on reading the entire story, true or not, coincidental or intentional, it was captivating nonetheless.

**

Part Four: The Plot Thickens

Rahul chuckled to himself. Mr. Carville would have no doubt found the story a compelling read- all he had to do was to convince him that it deserved a straight A, and he already knew what to do,

He had already demonstrated his skills with words (he had deliberately used words that a boy of his age wouldn't normally know, and although he hadn't been able to use 'sigmoid' and 'uxorius' as he had hoped he would, to impress Mr. Carville, but he would find a way somehow. )

His diction was impeccable, but that was an easy task, especially since he was used to using rather long sentences, and because he had been parctising writing 'in the stream of consciousness' for a long time. Who knew reading beat authors (a rather obscure genre of writers, for the standard of his peers, and for most of his teachers as well, including Mr. Carville.) would help him out today?

He had demonstrated the powers of his imagination- what twelve year boy could write a story about a boy who receives help with his English exam from an older version of himself from another universe?

There was just one flaw, and it was a big one-His story wasn't technically a story. He was treading on a very fine line between a narrative and a story.In the end, it would be up to Mr. Carville to decide what it really was. It was a risk, but like all great writers, Rahul had a twist in the tale planned already, and he was betting on Mr. Carville's curiosity to tide him through.

**
Mr. Carville's bewilderment rose to a crescendo. So far, everything seemed to be happening as the boy had said it would happen in his story. His interest was piqued, and he was in the grip of a spell he couldnt overcome. As he thought this, he was even more bewildered when the story pointed out his state of mind in almost the same words as he had heard in his mind. This definitely wasn't the work of an average schoolboy. This was something else altogether.
He decided to make a list of all the odd things with the story, and he was presented with yet another surprise. Right after where he'd left of reading the story was an innocuous sentence:

“He decided to make a list of all the odd things with the story, and he was presented with yet another surprise.” This was most curious. The boy seemed to know his very thoughts, and he kept referring to him by his name, almost mocking him, or flattering him. The boy knew him so well that he used the same words Mr.Carville used in his head.

Mr. Carville began listing out all the oddities in his head. First, the boy's uncanny ability to understand the reader's mind, then his his way with words- it wouldn't be exaggeration by any means to say that the boy was a veritable thesauraus, and the Unabridged Oxford English Dictionary all rolled into one. Thirdly, the diction- whereas he was used to reading half-formed sentences that somehow were bolted together in an unimaginative way to form the trappings of a rudimentary story or essay, this was eons ahead in terms of style and content. The boy seemed to have an advanced understanding of story writing, narrative techniques, and wrote in a curious style of writing which he claimed was 'writing in the stream of consciousness' and about which he himself had never heard about.

Lastly, the boy was even aware that his story might not pass off as a story in the first place- he had given proof of his awareness about it in the story itself. In fact, the whole story seemed to be contrived so as to demonstrate his skills as a writer. He found his thoughts digressing, and he realised he had stopped midway in the story. He quickly started reading from where he'd left off, and was surprised once more- the story hadn't really moved forward from the point he'd wandered off in his thoughts. It was as if the story would move forward only when he read it, and curiously still, this was mentioned in the story as well, right at the end of the paragraph which described his state of mind.

**
Part Five: Denouement

Rahul was satisfied. He was nearing the end of his story, and he was sure that Mr. Carville would be only too eager to reach the climax. He just had a little more to write, and needed to flesh out the ending a little bit. If everything worked according to plan, Mr. Carville would be occupied for many days upon reading his story, busy contemplating the questions the story raised. Of course, Rahul hadn't really decided what questions his story would raise right upto this moment, but he was probably going to slip something in towards the end.
**

Mr. Carville now paid even greater attention as he could see that the story was nearings it's end. He chuckled to himself when he used 'story' in his head- maybe the boy had already convinced him that it was a story and not a narrative. This had to be a masterpice. The boy had written a unique piece unlike any that he'd seen before, and he had demonstrated all the qualities that were expected of a great writer in a most intriguing manner, but why? Somehow, he felt that this entire exercise had to serve a far better purpose than just getting a perfect score. Sure, with the boy's skill, he could have written an entirely different story to the same effect, yet he chose to write something far riskier, and that felt to him a desperate attempt. He paused, realising that he taking the story much more seriously than it probably was. Yet, this story went beyond what it's apparent purpose was- the boy had made a lot of effort to make the story seem 'real', but why? He paused again, this time calculating the consequences of the story being true, even though it seemed such a stupid thing to think of, but then, there was still a little bit more to read before he could finish the story.

**

Epilogue:

The older Rahul read the finished story, while his younger self observed his expressions with no small amount of satisfaction. At last, he put the answer sheet down and sat with apparent content.

“i'm sure Mr. Carville will give you a perfect score on this, no doubt about that.”
“I still have some doubt, but not about my score though” said the younger Rahul.

“Doubts? About what? “

“Well, I'm still not sure whether Mr. Carville thinks if this is just a story, or if he believes what I've written to be true. What happened in your universe? Did he believe you or not ?”

“He gave me a perfect score, but I never found out if he believed it or not. Maybe, in this universe, your Mr. Carville will, who knows...”

Thursday, May 28, 2009

self rant/memorarium

This could be the saddest dusk, I've ever seen. Turn to a miracle. High alive.

I do not know why the lyrics to "Half a World Away" by R.E.M came to mind. But they did.

Today I talked to a friend from long back. He's a good man and his impeccable taste in writing at once inspires and intimidates me to be better at my art.

It's easy to see how long your life has been once you've come a bit far and looked back. This friend I talk of is one the many who I met a good 10 years ago. In Rap terms they were my crew. My homies. My 'Brothers in Arms'. My 'Reservoir Dogs' - We even had our own ultraviolent Mr Blond.

I suppose what I am doing is chronicling my apology to them all in a decrepit corner of the web. An apology for all time.

Mock Away.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

And, yet another one

Brb- gonna take a leak
Man, this is taking ages
Back--had to let out a river
By the way,when you settle in, look for an opening for me
I mean, when you have a job and all
You there, mate?
sorry - was drinking water
man...when you piss, you let out a stream
when you drink, do you let in one or what?

What a nice lil Chat I had with my friend today

They don
oh but they do
sides i am not a 15 year old prostitute anyways
you look like one though
fuck you
what will you charge for that?
you can fuck off for free Luv
ahh...a prostitute gratis? that
well you are such an ugly little minger that i decided for free
i knew you would, you slut
well you know - i have a heart of gold
yes, and a cunt like the abyss


Believe me, this is a real chat I had with the Blind Watchmaker, and he plays the prostitute.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Friday, July 20, 2007

Sleep



 

In the by-lanes of Delhi, amongst the besotted alleys that plague the locality, stands a rickety wooden structure. It almost passes off as an ancient ruin, save for the fact that instead of the customary djinns that guard all such warp-holes to the nether realm, it is in fact inhabited by a tormented soul, an old termagant, and a squeamish little girl


 

For some unfathomable reason, at random intervals, this mad woman chooses to introduce the little girl's frame to a nine-foot long whip that lashes out with ferocity, and tastes the little girl's blood with every kiss.


 

Whip. Welt. Wail.

Whip. Welt. Wail.

Whip. Welt. Wail.


 

This is the daily routine of the hag and the child. The tormented soul has a little more of the same ennui.


 

He wakes up to the wails of the girl, the hag's venomous hisses, and the crack of the whip.

Whip. Welt. Wail.

He then proceeds to have a quick shower, left over tea, and then, to his place of work.

Come six and he stumbles wearily to his home, and as he climbs the stairs, he can again hear the girl's screams.


 

Whip. Welt. Wail.


 

Over the few scraps of food, the girl's incessant cries, and these walls painted with fear that close around him, he tries to make some sense, and realizes that the cigarette is the only remedy.


 

A Cigarette- The patent soporific that takes a lot of time to work but puts you to sleep. Soft, deep sleep, a never ending slumber, stretching on through eternity.


 

He stretches out on the floor, and stares at the ceiling, trying to drift off into the darkness…


 

The wails start again. He checks his watch, and it's an ungodly hour.

He makes a list of the things he needs:


 

Cotton.

Tape.

Knife.

Cigarettes

Matches

And a can of petrol.


 


 

The door is ajar. The hag sleeps on the floor, exhausted from her labor. In a corner, lies the little girl, comatose.


 

He walks over to the hag.

Her moth is open, and drool oozes from between her teeth, making a small puddle at the side of her face…


 

The hag wakes up in agony, and tries to scream. She can make no sound…sticking out from the floor boards is a blade that passes through her throat, and pries open her teeth. She tries to move, but her hands and feet are bound by tape.


 

Out of the corner of her eyes, she spies the little girl, bound and gagged, and ties to a post.


 

The place reeks of petrol.


 

A movement catches her eye…in a dark corner, somebody lights a cigarette.


 

The match glides in an arc, and falls on the floor. The baptism by fire begins.


 

He stretches out on the floor, amidst the flames, the rot, and the hag and the child, and welcomes the rare visitor.


 

The long, much awaited Sleep.


 

Thursday, July 19, 2007

The Evil Penguins



The night was lovely, dark and deep. The moon was under a diaphanous haze. A slow wind played against the leaves, brushing them up, and gave a rustling orgasm to the trees.
Under one such tree, leaning against the cold wind, and much aghast, stood Supraman.
His orange cape billowed, his polka-dotted boxers caught the wind, and his hair blew against his face.
From his dark corner, he could see his enemy.
It had started many years ago, of course, as all such things do, and escaped detection for many a year.
Until now, that is.

The moment Supraman had seen them, he knew a dark conspiracy had begun. He had watched haplessly as they grew in numbers.
He had watched haplessly as they became a common sight.
Not anymore.

Almost mocking him, stood tall his enemy.
Its yellow beak caught the moon, its black and white body glistened, but the most offensive sight were the scrawny letters on his chest: “Feed Me!”
The penguin stood tall.

Supraman was the only one who knew the evil designs of the Penguins. Such hatred, such malice could only be found in such utterly disgusting creatures as they. They flapped their ugly feet in a most derogatory manner, clacking their beaks, communicating their evil desires in a language only they could understand.
For years, they had fooled the humans into believing that they were harmless and cute…Imagine that-CUTE!
Bah.
They fooled humans into believing they only ate fish. They had eaten all the Human population long ago, no wonder they were reduced to eating fish.

That was the start.
Deprived of humans, they sought to replenish their stock by taking over the world.
It wasn’t easy, of course. The humans were more dangerous now, having acquired guns, tanks and rockets and missiles and what not.

Thus began an insidious plot to take the world without the loss of penguin life.
The skilled penguins noted that the human society was in fact dominated by another kind…smaller and weaker, by itself unarmed, and even then, totally in control. They dominated the economics, the politics, households, and industries…everything you could imagine. Children, the humans called them.

To control humans, one needed to control children.

The conniving Penguins soon found out a weakness in the children-their lust for all things shiny and cute.
Anyone in their right senses would find a penguin abominable, if not outrightly repulsive, and so a major image make-over was needed.
This was achieved by blackmailing the head of a certain TV Cartoon Channel agency. That, and hypnotism.

Soon, the TV channel was broadcasting the foulest of all Penguin propaganda- Pingu.
Pingu, through ingenious sub-conscious hypnotism, and his foul antics, won the hearts of the children worldwide.
The result is for all to see.

Penguin paraphernalia made their inroads into everything.
Like this park.
This Penguin was disguised as a Trash-receptacle.
Its true purpose was far more sinister- through its open mouth, the penguin served as an intra-dimensional space warp, through which Humans would be channeled to Antarctica- the homeland of penguins ever since their spaceship crashed there.

They had forgotten one thing though: the world still had hope in Supraman!

He had waited long enough.
Now was the time to act.
In one fluid motion, Supraman leapt from his hiding place, his legs outstretched in what was to be a fatal kick.
The air rang with his scream “Die! Evile Penguin!”

The kick connected.

The penguin flew, the garbage falling behind in a parabolic arc.

He was still madly laughing when the guards took him down for vandalism.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Stuck in a curfew

Riots are no fun. Not for the people who are rioting, nor for the people who are stuck in them and definitely not for the people who are trying to control them.

Sadly, riots do happen.

Like the one that happened today. Oh yes, I saw it happen, from a rather unsafe place that happens to be my home.

It was not a pretty sight.

On the first look, you get this feeling that suddenly there's an urgency amongst the crowd that was assembled. Then suddenly, there's this rush…people running from here to there in such a hurry that they forget their footwear behind. There's a lot of screaming. Mostly women and children.

Then, if things get bad, like they did today, there are gunshots.

A gunshot has amazing potential to silence a crowd, if only for a few seconds.

Today, just one wasn't enough, there were many. Too bad them bullets got some one this time and hell broke loose.

The crowd just erupted, as if someone has set a match to a bee-hive.

People started throwing everything they could lay their hands off. Most of the time, they just hurt themselves.

It's hard to aim properly when you're scared of the guns, the noise and the screaming mob that you are now a part of.

The anger soon subsides, and an urge to get to safety takes over, and again there is a wild race with no body getting anywhere, especially the children.

The cops arrive, along with the news crew. The injured are taken to the hospital. Let us hope no one dies or they'll be a fresh riot again.

A curfew is imposed and the streets are empty.

It's just a confused mass of chappals lying abandoned on the street that remind you of what happened.

And the silence.